Emily and Jef

What an amazing ending! Jef is definitely a good match for Emily.

My only regret sitting there watching it all was that she didn’t give Arie a chance with Rickie. He had already had experience being with a single mom. What if he had been just as good with her, if not better?

But maybe what swayed Emily in the end was that she and Arie didn’t have as many honest, heart-to-heart talks that she and Jef had shared. With Arie, it was definitely attraction and passion, and yes, he’s such a good guy, but it was the depth of what they had that caused her to choose Jef instead. Arie definitely showed her physically that he loved her, but did he show her intellectually? In some ways he did “come out” and it was so great when he did. I just wanted him to keep talking; there was so much value in his words, so intriguing what his next ones might be. But instead he kept kissing her. Next time Arie, for whatever it’s worth, let a woman “hear” who you really are. You’ll win her heart for sure.



Well, I could have seen that coming. I know Chris seemed sweet and probably is a good man, but under that kind of pressure, I think it got to him. Accusing sweet Doug of antagonizing him? It didn’t even happen. Chris seemed way too sensitive about everything, which to mean screams immaturity. He’ll grow out of it and be an amazing catch, but isn’t quite there yet. I saw someone who maybe wouldn’t be able to handle much chaos, and with kids comes that, even if it’s the good kind. And yes, there is a good kind of chaos. Where all four kids are singing a different song at once, or playing sock wars with bundled socks flying everywhere, or laughing over a Chris Farley scene…we miss you, Chris.

I digress.

What I saw ┬áin The Bachelorette Chris is that he kept saying he was the best man for Emily in that group. Anyone who says they are the best is only trying to convince themselves. It’s like playing Facebook’s game, Farkle, with a guy from Aussie who’s married, who says he has a great relationship with his wife, who flirts incessantly with me no matter how many times I tell him to stop, who doesn’t tell his wife he’s talking to more than one woman online…and he says he’s a “nice guy.” I put up with him for a few weeks, then cut off communication. He’s not a nice guy, and what I told him is his wife and I both deserve better.

Who do I predict Emily will end up with? Sean. He’s not my first choice, though. He might be a great guy but I haven’t once seen him act like a kid, really let himself go. He seems like he’d be very controlling, but I’m sure loving, and a great provider and protector. And Jef is a great guy, but does she not see that he’s probably Morman, and that’s not a bad thing, but definitely something she needs to know if she’s not Mormon? And yes, he’s so fun to be with, he’s so expressive and honest, you can’t help but love the guy. But Arie, he’s the guy for her. In that race car suit? Wow! Come on! And he is silly, goofy, honest, loving. It stinks that I think he’ll be the one rejected in the end.

I guess we’ll see soon enough. I need to get out more. No, I just need to get out, period.


I know I’m a bit behind, but Doug? Noooo. He is so sweet. A little slow but man, he must have been hurt by some awful woman. And John, well I guess I could see that one coming. He just held back so much, but as the great Paul Rudd says in Forty Year Old Virgin, “that’s [his] journey.”

And as I warned you, I do have a bit of a meltdown when I talk about the abuse, so that’s why I haven’t been posting much lately. I’ll get back.

Ryan and Travis: Another Bachelorette Commentary

Hands down, Ryan is gorgeous, funny, charming, endearing. On the flip side, what he wants in a woman is much like a robot: not too emotional, logical, servant, etc. Some of the attributes on his list are good of course, like faithful, but as Emily says, there is nothing on his list about love. Kind of sad. And when he leaves her after not getting the rose, the one thing he really focuses on is how he looks, how his personality is portrayed, on camera. Not one tear. Because he knows getting women is not difficult for him. And I think he assumes that he will be the next Bachelor.

As for Travis, your heart just breaks. Look at the difference between Travis leaving, Alejandro leaving, and Ryan. Profound difference. And I just wanted to yell at my television, “Yes Travis, you will find someone!” But of course that would have been pathetic, so I didn’t yell it. I just thought it. It’s a toss up for me between Alejandro and Travis for the new Bachelor. Or that sweet man, sorry I can’t remember his name, with the disability. As I said before, this group of guys, especially the ones left now, have huge hearts, and real emotion, like Doug did on Monday. It made my heart hurt. They all deserve someone amazing, and what they don’t know is that they will probably get more offers of love than they can handle. I just hope they find someone perfect for each of them.

Anyway, just my thoughts, and I already know I am too committed to watching other people fall in love instead of finding my own. I just don’t know what that feels like, so I stay away from it rather than walking toward it. I didn’t know that PTSD was why I never could connect to anyone. Why I couldn’t stay. Or love very deeply. So I live vicariously through all the romance movies and novels and reality shows, and that’s how I feel anything at all.

The Bachelorette Commentary

I know this isn’t really literary, but I had to say something about what’s going on with the show. lol

First of all, I think Emily seems very sweet. As for the guys, wow, what a great group of people they are. Now I would have kicked Kalen out when he shushed me the first time, and I would have kicked Ryan out for his weirdness in the beginning, but I would have been wrong about Ryan. He is so gorgeous and so neat. Yeah yeah I know. I must have better things to do with my time than talk about the lives of these people, but I get into it, I don’t have a guy, and that’s all I’ve got to say on that matter.

I have really been impressed with the guys. I know I’ve said that, but they all seem so sincere. So good.

As for Emily getting upset with the guys this last week because no one told her what Kalen had said about her daughter, I’d have to disagree with how she handled it.

What I saw was all those guys being very concerned, angry, and protective of Emily and Ricki. I didn’t see what Emily saw…no one having her back. And I also didn’t get how she felt so disrespected, how she said no one told her, when Doug was the one who, as soon as he heard about it, sat her down and was honest with her. Wow, way to go, Doug. He really showed his greatness there. I don’t think any of them deserved the anger that Emily showed toward them. It’s not like they all let her shuffle along, and even pick Kalen in the end, and THEN tell her.

Anyway, if I were a bit younger, and really skinny (I can and do plan to fix the skinny part; can’t do much about the age part), I’d say “hey ya’ll” to any of those guys, because they are the best group I’ve seen on there. And don’t even get me started on how I drooled over them wearing Romeo…and even the Nurse…costumes. Wow. It just seems like there’s a group of guys that have integrity, honesty, compassion, and good looks.

And I’m sorry that Alejandro was kicked off because he was a sweetheart. Maybe he should be the next Bachelor???

That’s all for now.

The Budget

Washington State has decided that since our numbers for unemployment have improved, the rest of the unemployed don’t need any more benefits.

Thousands of people this month will find themselves without unemployment benefits and no job.

And these people are not deadbeats. They are those with degrees, highly skilled.

After one and a half years, applying to three jobs per week, I have been offered two interviews. I have three degrees.

The second interview did offer me a part time faculty position at a community college, to which I am very grateful. But it’s paid for by a grant that may not be in existence after this quarter.

Then I started thinking about our government’s budget, and here’s what I came up with:

Here’s what I suggest the government do. Think of its citizens as its children.

What is a good parent (the government)?

The parent makes sure the child is safe.

So why is our government cutting spending of police and firemen?

The parent makes sure the child has a good education.

Why is the government cutting spending in education?

The parent makes sure the child gets to a doctor when it gets sick.

Why is the government allowing insurance companies to make decisions about health care, or allowing sick people with little money an insurance that no doctors will accept?

The parent makes sure to leave an inheritance.

Why is the government considering cutting social security, disability, and medicare?

The parent makes sure to help out when times are tough.

Why is the government considering cutting social and health services, Section 8 programs, Battered Women’s Shelters?

The parent makes sure the child’s house is warm, and clean.

The government should never consider cutting spending on the environment.

The parent makes sure to always put the child first.

Why is the government paid so well, with amazing benefits that no one else seems to have?

The solution?

Not anything listed above for starters.

So where does the government get the money it needs?

Maybe legalizing marijuana?

One type of health insurance that serves the needs of every citizen?

How about all the companies that outsource bring those jobs back to the US?

I honestly don’t know as I’m not an expert in politics or the economy. I know that some government officials are doing all they can. I’m sure they work hard, struggle long, to figure out what to cut, but there has to be another option besides those listed above.

I encourage anyone reading this to offer their own insight.


Let’s Talk About The Economy

I’m not much for politics. I guess I got my fill when my grandmother was Mayor three separate terms in a small town in California. But I have ideas so here goes.

I just heard on the news how this manufacturer of furniture in North Carolina has just brought his company back from China. He’s making furniture in the US again with Americans building it. How wonderful is that?! He said, and it’s what I’ve believed, that the bottom line can’t be profits anymore. It has to be about our people in this country who desperately need work. So what if a company’s profit goes down some as long as it makes a nice profit and people here have jobs.

All this outsourcing is killing our pride and our self-worth. Every time I call for computer help, and I won’t name the company here, I get someone from some foreign country who I can’t understand and who doesn’t understand me. I get rehearsed crap like “try turning off your computer and restarting it” when the problem is it won’t turn on at all! But they don’t hear that. Not only do they have our jobs but they don’t get our culture or our language. I have spent literally hours on the phone in one call, being switched from one person to the next, finding them pushy, inconsiderate, and uneducated in the jobs they have taken from us.

So when I call a company and actually get an American, I say how glad I am to be talking to them, and how much I like their company for giving us jobs. And that’s what every company who outsources needs to think about. Bring back our jobs and you’ll have an even higher benefit than huge profits because our economy will greatly improve, our moral will skyrocket, and we’ll have our pride back. So what if you lose a little money? You’ll gain so much more.